Revelation

During a moment of tearful prayer during my shower a few moments ago, a thought occurred to me for the first time (God speaking, I'm positive) and now I'm sharing it via my phone while sitting wrapped up in a towel on the toilet lid:

I don't think I lost my best friend, I think it's more likely that she needed to remove a toxic person from her life and that toxic person was me. 

I am at peace with that. 

As ridiculous as this sounds, I feel better now because I'm fairly certain that she started feeling better a long time ago.

Thank You, God. 

I have some things to work on.