Well, I finally realized that certain things didn't work on that last template I used. I tried to change to something else, but blogger wouldn't accept the code. So I'll just stick to a pre-made one already on here that I know will work.
I survived the reunion weekend! We left Friday right after work and drove up to Pittsburgh. BFS is a good traveler. Anyway, after some traffic and nearly going to the wrong hotel, we finally got to our destination at about 10:30 pm. I met his dad and step-mom that evening. It was pretty brief, so shortly thereafter we retired to our rooms and went to bed.
Next day we had brunch with his parents and then headed to the reunion. BF said there would only be 30 or so people there, but I think it was more like 50! He didn't really know anyone, so we pal-ed around together the entire time and spent some more time talking to his parents (thus, I got to know them a bit better).
There was lots of stuff to do there. There was fishing, horseshoes and some other games, horsey rides for the kids, lots of food and drinks...and there was more, but for the life of me, I can't remember what it is. BFS had a mental checklist of things he wanted to do while he was there. It was kind of cute and I'm pretty sure he did all of it.
After that, we had dinner/dessert with his parents and then retired to bed.
Sunday, we had breakfast with his parents and then headed home. BF had to drop BFS off with his ex, then he came back over for game night with my parents.
He said that his parents like me and they both have the same good feeling about me. That is such a hugely humongous-ly gigantic relief! I liked them, too. They were very nice and welcoming and I enjoyed talking to them. They told me that they expected me to come down and visit with BF and BFS if they come down during the winter (ahhhhh!!!).
Even though we spent just about every second of 48 hours together, I felt like it had just been another trip to work. I don't know if that made sense. It didn't feel like we actually saw each other as much as we did. Maybe it's because we were so busy the entire time. He said he felt the same way. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I guess it's good...it's better than feeling like the weekend dragged on and we got sick of each other.
We've actually seen each other every day for over two weeks now. And not just for 5 minutes. I just doesn't feel like that much.
Last night we went to a local baseball game together (our team won and they had fantastic fireworks afterwards!) and today it feels like I didn't even see him.
He's been talking about wedding stuff and houses lately. He showed me a house that he wants in WV and he wanted to know if I liked it. I am so close to grabbing his face in my hands and making him look me in the eye while I tell him, "You're thinking about this all out of order!!!!!"
I can't make him propose, but I feel like that needs to happen before I even toy with the idea of anything else.
And funny enough, he was talking about a cruise wedding and yesterday I get something in the mail for the first time from a major cruise line.
All of this is still so exciting and scary and somehow depressing.
Oh well.
In other news, I've been keeping up with my walking/running. I ran before work yesterday and one of my feet went numb. I googled it and it looks like when people have this problem it because of their shoes or socks. I haven't tightened the laces on my shoes since I got them and I know they're broken in by now. So I hope it's just because it was already 80 degrees outside so my feet probably swelled a little and my sock had gotten messed up.
I'm being beckoned by my mother. Later!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Run run run
One of my least favorite things about writing here is that I don't know how to start an entry. I don't know how many times I sit down to write and then don't because I can't even figure out the first sentence.
How lame.
Things have been rather uneventful over the last two weeks, I think. I have trouble remembering what happens from day to day because it feels like time is going so incredibly fast. The year is already over halfway over and so much is coming up...or at least it feels like there so much coming up.
One of the office assistants had her last day of work two Fridays ago, so this week I and a co-worker (I'll call her Leigh) have been alternating days being office assistants. I kind of like it. It gives me a break from paying claims and it gives me something different to think about. It also helps keep my production up, I think, which makes me look good. Or better, anyway.
I carpooled with BF Monday through Thursday. It's nice to be able to save some gas, but I really like getting to see him first thing in the morning. And it's nice to ride with someone (and the fact that it's him makes it so much better). It makes me dislike Fridays, though. He doesn't work on Friday and I typically don't get to see him at all...which is what happened yesterday. Seeing each other for more than just 5 minutes every day since Saturday and then a day with nothing at all feels kind of crappy.
I went for a run last Saturday. Actually, it was more like a power walk than a run. I probably ran/jogged .75 miles total and briskly walked the rest of the time. I splurged on a pair of nice running shoes to get myself motivated. They weren't too expensive, I don't think, but they were more than I would typically spend on a pair of shoes and they had a good rating and looked like they were good quality. It was a brand I've worn before and they are silver and black and hot pink!
Anyway, I figured if I had a pair of running shoes then I'd probably be more motivated to get up early and run. The only problem is that I'd only have time to do it on the weekends, which doesn't seem like it would be that helpful.
I was talking to my co-worker/friend and mentioned the running and how I was thinking about trying to do something like that before work, since I arrive an hour before my shift starts, and she said that she would try to get there early, too, and walk with me.
Yay!
So we actually walked about 2.5 miles before work on Thursday and Friday, which kicked my butt and made me feel exhausted for the entire day. But when I ran this morning, I actually ran more on the same route I used last weekend and my time was better. I use an app on my phone to keep track of it, which is kind of fun. Then I can see my progress.
This morning was even better because BF got up early and met me at the end of a nearby road on his bike and we did most of my run/walk together. I like doing that with someone because I feel safer and it's nice to have someone to talk to. I really like that he was willing to get up early on his 'Sunday' and do it with me. When we got back to the house, we sat outside in the cool air and chatted for about 45 minutes.
Ah, he's such a wonderful boyfriend. I'm so undeserving of him.
His birthday is on Sunday, but what I want to do for his birthday can't be done until August. So I have a plan of something small I can do in honor of his birthday. He'll be 31 years old. It's kind of weird to think that he's nearly 3 years older than I am. He's such a big kid, it's easy to forget.
This upcoming Friday is when we leave for his family reunion. I am so incredibly nervous, it isn't funny. I'll not just be meeting his parents, I'll be meeting practically his entire extended family on his dad's side all at the same time. I hope his parents like me as much as he says they will. Sometimes I do or say dumb things out of nervousness and anxiety and people get the wrong idea. Or I'm extremely shy and I come across as being a snob or being self-righteous, which I'm not. I guess I'll find out soon enough. I think we're leaving right after I get home from work, so I'll have to have my stuff packed up before I go to bed on Thursday.
Today would've been an extremely busy day, except I'm not super woman. I was asked to do some overtime at work this morning, but I don't have childcare (although BF said he would watch the kids if I wanted him to). There's one of those hosted parties this afternoon, except it's two separate parties smooshed into one big 4 hour party. Then my niece and nephew are having a combined birthday party this afternoon. So my hopes of doing something for BF's birthday today were dashed and I knew I could only opt for one activity, so I chose the family birthday party.
It's still going to be a fairly busy day. Running this morning, then getting a shower and feeding the kids, then going out to the store to get what I need for BF's little surprise, then lunch and naptime, then running out the door for the birthday party, rushing home to get them in bed at a decent hour and then hopefully spending the evening with BF after he drops BFS off with his mother.
Weekends just don't feel like weekends anymore.
How lame.
Things have been rather uneventful over the last two weeks, I think. I have trouble remembering what happens from day to day because it feels like time is going so incredibly fast. The year is already over halfway over and so much is coming up...or at least it feels like there so much coming up.
One of the office assistants had her last day of work two Fridays ago, so this week I and a co-worker (I'll call her Leigh) have been alternating days being office assistants. I kind of like it. It gives me a break from paying claims and it gives me something different to think about. It also helps keep my production up, I think, which makes me look good. Or better, anyway.
I carpooled with BF Monday through Thursday. It's nice to be able to save some gas, but I really like getting to see him first thing in the morning. And it's nice to ride with someone (and the fact that it's him makes it so much better). It makes me dislike Fridays, though. He doesn't work on Friday and I typically don't get to see him at all...which is what happened yesterday. Seeing each other for more than just 5 minutes every day since Saturday and then a day with nothing at all feels kind of crappy.
I went for a run last Saturday. Actually, it was more like a power walk than a run. I probably ran/jogged .75 miles total and briskly walked the rest of the time. I splurged on a pair of nice running shoes to get myself motivated. They weren't too expensive, I don't think, but they were more than I would typically spend on a pair of shoes and they had a good rating and looked like they were good quality. It was a brand I've worn before and they are silver and black and hot pink!
Anyway, I figured if I had a pair of running shoes then I'd probably be more motivated to get up early and run. The only problem is that I'd only have time to do it on the weekends, which doesn't seem like it would be that helpful.
I was talking to my co-worker/friend and mentioned the running and how I was thinking about trying to do something like that before work, since I arrive an hour before my shift starts, and she said that she would try to get there early, too, and walk with me.
Yay!
So we actually walked about 2.5 miles before work on Thursday and Friday, which kicked my butt and made me feel exhausted for the entire day. But when I ran this morning, I actually ran more on the same route I used last weekend and my time was better. I use an app on my phone to keep track of it, which is kind of fun. Then I can see my progress.
This morning was even better because BF got up early and met me at the end of a nearby road on his bike and we did most of my run/walk together. I like doing that with someone because I feel safer and it's nice to have someone to talk to. I really like that he was willing to get up early on his 'Sunday' and do it with me. When we got back to the house, we sat outside in the cool air and chatted for about 45 minutes.
Ah, he's such a wonderful boyfriend. I'm so undeserving of him.
His birthday is on Sunday, but what I want to do for his birthday can't be done until August. So I have a plan of something small I can do in honor of his birthday. He'll be 31 years old. It's kind of weird to think that he's nearly 3 years older than I am. He's such a big kid, it's easy to forget.
This upcoming Friday is when we leave for his family reunion. I am so incredibly nervous, it isn't funny. I'll not just be meeting his parents, I'll be meeting practically his entire extended family on his dad's side all at the same time. I hope his parents like me as much as he says they will. Sometimes I do or say dumb things out of nervousness and anxiety and people get the wrong idea. Or I'm extremely shy and I come across as being a snob or being self-righteous, which I'm not. I guess I'll find out soon enough. I think we're leaving right after I get home from work, so I'll have to have my stuff packed up before I go to bed on Thursday.
Today would've been an extremely busy day, except I'm not super woman. I was asked to do some overtime at work this morning, but I don't have childcare (although BF said he would watch the kids if I wanted him to). There's one of those hosted parties this afternoon, except it's two separate parties smooshed into one big 4 hour party. Then my niece and nephew are having a combined birthday party this afternoon. So my hopes of doing something for BF's birthday today were dashed and I knew I could only opt for one activity, so I chose the family birthday party.
It's still going to be a fairly busy day. Running this morning, then getting a shower and feeding the kids, then going out to the store to get what I need for BF's little surprise, then lunch and naptime, then running out the door for the birthday party, rushing home to get them in bed at a decent hour and then hopefully spending the evening with BF after he drops BFS off with his mother.
Weekends just don't feel like weekends anymore.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
I've got no powah
The power went out Friday night.
We didn't have power all day Saturday. It was so incredibly hot inside that the kids were drenched in sweat and so was I. We have a generator, but we used it for the refrigerator and to charge our phones and it made me very grouchy and all I wanted was to be able to take a shower. BF kept checking in throughout the day to see if the power came back, which it hadn't, then at about 3 pm he told me he'd be back in Gma's and said I could take a shower there.
So the kids and I piled in my car and went over there...only 2-3 miles away, with electricity and air conditioning...and we all were bathed and enjoying the cool air for a little while. Gma is such a sweet woman and I can't thank her enough for letting us use her shower.
To be courteous, I made sure everything was clean when I left and I brought my own towels and soap so she wouldn't feel so put out for allowing us to do that.
Then BF and his son and me and my kids headed out to grab some dinner. I was already still grouchy because of being in the heat all day long and BF was on the edge because of I don't know what. I'll be honest with you, dinner was not fun that evening.
I didn't get the kids in bed that night until the sun went down just because I wanted their room to have a chance to cool a little bit. It didn't cool down at all because there was no air circulating throughout the house to get the warm air out.
BF came shortly after 8 pm and helped my dad install a window fan. Then the air started moving a bit. After the kids were in bed and everything else was settled, BF and I went outside to talk for a while in the cool night air. We sat in these metal chairs near the main entrance.
He told me that he was thinking about this plan that he has and that he feels like he's procrastinating with "us" and he doesn't know why. He said he wasn't sure he would ever get to where he wants to be with this plan that he's not telling me. All he said is that by next spring, he thinks he'll be where he wants to be financially. I don't know what means. I was asking questions to try and understand, but they really got me nowhere.
He then said he had a blanket in his truck and we could go halfway down the driveway and lay down to look at the stars.
What a neat idea. :) So that's what we did. We laid there and kept talking. He asked me where I wanted to be by this time next year and I honestly don't know. All I know is where I want to end up, but I don't know how to get there. And it's not like I can have a plan...He seems to have this schedule set in his head for how he wants things to be done and no plan of mine can change that.
We talked about the fears we have and I told him my fear of making that kind of commitment again. I'm so glad that he seemed to understand and didn't think it was weird.
I really enjoyed that time with him. It's definitely something I'll remember for a long time.
The power came back on at about 5 am this morning.
The power was still out at the church, so there was no service. I spent some time outside with DD and DS and got some sun. Then they had lunch and went down for a nap. I took a nap, too, and had the most horrible dream.
I dreamt that I had been pulled over by a police officer and with the way he was talking to me, he was going to make sure he was going to do everything possible to make sure that I was going to jail. He did a search on me before he took me to wherever he took me...then I waited in that room for a long time, knowing that he was going to come back and do a cavity search. In this dream, he was pulling over lots of people and doing the same thing, putting us all in this holding room. I had an iP@d and my cell phone and I was trying to contact someone on the outside for help and the devices wouldn't work. They didn't have good service or kept falling apart.
Then I woke up. That probably sounds really dumb, but when I was in the middle of it, it was horrifying!
Some time today, I got a text from my coworker friend, telling me that there is no work tomorrow because there is still no power down there. I was excited at first, then realized that there would be no date night because I'd then be taking them to visitation, which is fine. BF and I had already been trying to discuss what we were going to do, so I was little disappointed. I think he's going to come with us, though. The kids are excited that I get to take them up there and DD likes that BF will likely be tagging along. My mom said that after visitation and after we get them fed, we can drop them off and resume our usual date night.
I'm not sure what we'll be doing because it'll be late by the time we get back, but I appreciate that my mom will still let us have some alone time together.
I'm pretty happy that I get this extra time with the kids tomorrow. DS is so lovey and affectionate, I can't get enough of his cuddling. I like to watch him and DD interact and learn from each other (mostly him learning from her). And DD is too stinkin' smart for her own good. She knows exactly how to manipulate things so that she gets what she wants and I don't realize it until it's already done.
Well, I guess that's all for now. I don't know why I've been writing so much lately.
Until next time...
We didn't have power all day Saturday. It was so incredibly hot inside that the kids were drenched in sweat and so was I. We have a generator, but we used it for the refrigerator and to charge our phones and it made me very grouchy and all I wanted was to be able to take a shower. BF kept checking in throughout the day to see if the power came back, which it hadn't, then at about 3 pm he told me he'd be back in Gma's and said I could take a shower there.
So the kids and I piled in my car and went over there...only 2-3 miles away, with electricity and air conditioning...and we all were bathed and enjoying the cool air for a little while. Gma is such a sweet woman and I can't thank her enough for letting us use her shower.
To be courteous, I made sure everything was clean when I left and I brought my own towels and soap so she wouldn't feel so put out for allowing us to do that.
Then BF and his son and me and my kids headed out to grab some dinner. I was already still grouchy because of being in the heat all day long and BF was on the edge because of I don't know what. I'll be honest with you, dinner was not fun that evening.
I didn't get the kids in bed that night until the sun went down just because I wanted their room to have a chance to cool a little bit. It didn't cool down at all because there was no air circulating throughout the house to get the warm air out.
BF came shortly after 8 pm and helped my dad install a window fan. Then the air started moving a bit. After the kids were in bed and everything else was settled, BF and I went outside to talk for a while in the cool night air. We sat in these metal chairs near the main entrance.
He told me that he was thinking about this plan that he has and that he feels like he's procrastinating with "us" and he doesn't know why. He said he wasn't sure he would ever get to where he wants to be with this plan that he's not telling me. All he said is that by next spring, he thinks he'll be where he wants to be financially. I don't know what means. I was asking questions to try and understand, but they really got me nowhere.
He then said he had a blanket in his truck and we could go halfway down the driveway and lay down to look at the stars.
What a neat idea. :) So that's what we did. We laid there and kept talking. He asked me where I wanted to be by this time next year and I honestly don't know. All I know is where I want to end up, but I don't know how to get there. And it's not like I can have a plan...He seems to have this schedule set in his head for how he wants things to be done and no plan of mine can change that.
We talked about the fears we have and I told him my fear of making that kind of commitment again. I'm so glad that he seemed to understand and didn't think it was weird.
I really enjoyed that time with him. It's definitely something I'll remember for a long time.
The power came back on at about 5 am this morning.
The power was still out at the church, so there was no service. I spent some time outside with DD and DS and got some sun. Then they had lunch and went down for a nap. I took a nap, too, and had the most horrible dream.
I dreamt that I had been pulled over by a police officer and with the way he was talking to me, he was going to make sure he was going to do everything possible to make sure that I was going to jail. He did a search on me before he took me to wherever he took me...then I waited in that room for a long time, knowing that he was going to come back and do a cavity search. In this dream, he was pulling over lots of people and doing the same thing, putting us all in this holding room. I had an iP@d and my cell phone and I was trying to contact someone on the outside for help and the devices wouldn't work. They didn't have good service or kept falling apart.
Then I woke up. That probably sounds really dumb, but when I was in the middle of it, it was horrifying!
Some time today, I got a text from my coworker friend, telling me that there is no work tomorrow because there is still no power down there. I was excited at first, then realized that there would be no date night because I'd then be taking them to visitation, which is fine. BF and I had already been trying to discuss what we were going to do, so I was little disappointed. I think he's going to come with us, though. The kids are excited that I get to take them up there and DD likes that BF will likely be tagging along. My mom said that after visitation and after we get them fed, we can drop them off and resume our usual date night.
I'm not sure what we'll be doing because it'll be late by the time we get back, but I appreciate that my mom will still let us have some alone time together.
I'm pretty happy that I get this extra time with the kids tomorrow. DS is so lovey and affectionate, I can't get enough of his cuddling. I like to watch him and DD interact and learn from each other (mostly him learning from her). And DD is too stinkin' smart for her own good. She knows exactly how to manipulate things so that she gets what she wants and I don't realize it until it's already done.
Well, I guess that's all for now. I don't know why I've been writing so much lately.
Until next time...
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